The Stylish Bloggger Award

I just received my first-ever blog award; The Stylish Blog Award, from Lindsey at
Just Another MilSpouse.  I'm really grateful.  Thanks Lindsey. I'm new to blogging, so I'm going to try to follow the rules correctly now. 

The way I understand that this works is;

The Rules are as follows:

1. Thank and link back to the person who awarded you this award.
done; again, thanks Lindsey
2. Share 7 things about yourself
3. Award 10 recently discovered great bloggers
So, thank you again, very much Lindsey at "Just Another MilSpouse"


Blogs I discovered:
Summer Night Horizens
These Fragile Flames
Anyway I was Just Thinking
The Kitty Stampede
Waxed Red Threads
Attitude of Gratitude
it's a girl thing
Telling War Stories
Tabitha's Blog
Twelve Beads

And now 7 things about myself--hmmm

1.  When I was working I used to think if I could just stay home like I did when my kids were little I'd be happy again. I've been unemployed over a year and I keep thinking if could just get a job I'd be happy. So, I've realized my happiness isn't determined by my situation, but rather, 'it's an inside job'.

2.  I've been in recovery for 10-1/2 years, but desperately need to get to a meeting. I'm in a new state and need to find them.

3.  I am very insecure, and deep down don't really believe I can be successful at anything.

4.  I have 4 kids, I would do anything in the world for.

5.  My kids  believe I have a favorite, obviously they can't all believe it's the same one, but I don't have a favorite. I'm not sure if it's even possible. I know it's not possible for me.

6.  Now that I have forgiven my mother for the things done to me as a child, I realize it's irrelevant, and arrogant. It's not my job to forgive her. I just understand her better. I'm just supposed to live the best life I can, from now on, I can't change the past.

7.  I desperately want to change the past, because I want to have been a better mother to my kids.

Gratitude. Yeah I know.

I've Heard about gratitude. I've really tried to embrace it. But it wasn't until I read a blog. Oh, I wish I'd copied that link>  Anyway, thing is that once I truly got the meaning of gratitude, that it just made me more grateful, because practicing it, is the same as doing it, so we can always be grateful. Example:  Today were you grateful that grateful that someone brought you a hamburger, or  had heat in the house, or warm slippers, or talked to a family member on the phone.  Now ask yourself; what trouble did I cause someone today;--I kept typing while my son talked to me, or another level, I stepped on an aunt colony when I put a post in the ground, or I cut someone off in traffic, or talked about a person in way that wasn't nice, then ask youself;  what did you contribute; I brought my husband some  medicine. I helped an older person carry some bags to the car, I brought someone a hambuger.  It just all makes sense to me now.  I don't know.  I just new I had to write it somewhere that I knew I wouldn't lose it. Because it's approaching a year since the car fell on me, and looking back at 2010, I can say a lot has happened, but it's happened to the people around me, not me. I haven't really lived this past year. Now I'm going to start living. I want to go back to work as a nurse. This insight, that probably for most people is common sense is a new realization for me. My bones are healing, the pain is much better than a year ago, but it's not about any of that. It's that now I'm grateful for where I am, for all that I have, for the people I love and who love me back. From now I'm going to live everyday. I'm not going to try to do that. I'm going to do that. Everyday I will answer those 3 questions for myself. I will try to increase the 'improving things for others' category, but will look for ways each day, no matter how insignificant they may seem, and I will be grateful for things too, no matter how insignificant they may seem also. Right now I'm so grateful for the two bloggers who wrote about this before I did, and who put it in terms that I could grasp, because I feel like it is changing my life. Thank you, you 2 wonderful, insightful people. If you happen to see this, please add your link. Thanks!
http://thesefragileflames.blogspot.com/